It's 2010 and I still miss you both soooo much, I know that I always will, but there's a part of you that always hopes that the pain will decrease and that it wont always feel so raw. There isn't an hour that I dont think of you both and wonder what it would ve been like to have held you, rocked you to sleep, soothed your tears and all those things that I have longed to do and ached for missing. This Christmas was so hard but hopefully it wont be long before we have news of a brother or sister for you both... A baby that will be as special as you both are, but a baby we can hold in our arms as well as our hearts. With so much love, Mummyxxx